1Peter 5:7

"cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you"- 1Peter 5:7

so i dunno if that's exactly what it says because my dad texted me this verse tonight (yeah my dad's big time texting on his cellular device these days). but i needed to hear that so bad. I've just been struggling with soooo much stress lately. with school always there, working multiple jobs, and being a natural/professional worrier with all kinds of stuff going on around me its been a little tough. and i won't lie i get super low...ALOT...but there is always that one constant thing that finds a way to bring me back...God is always there, ALWAYS...i could be running as fast as i think i possibly could go in the opposite direction and he's already there waiting on me telling me to start running back home. its awesome and crazy at the same time.

see i've suffered from depression and often times question if i'm relapsing. i have constant family stresses and financial issues, drama out the wahzoo. not even kidding cw should call me up and write a story on me and some of my friend's lives, it would make the next best teen/young adult drama. but i mean, lets get real i'm not the only one going through the things i go through. sometimes its hard to step back and realize that too. its like you get so wrapped up in your life, that you don't stop to think about other people who are experiencing the same stuff, if not worse.

but i'm kinda getting off topic which is something i could go pro at, so i'm gonna try and bring it back now...

"cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you"...that is just a powerful phrase and thought to embrace. i struggle with believing that people could possibly care about me, i have issues with self worth, so to hear/read something like this at first is just kinda like...um ok sure whatever? but when i just take the time to really go beyond what my inner "demons" tell me, its really like WOW, like this God guy cares about me....like for real? it takes work for me to get to this point but when i do its...overwhelming and to an extent still beyond my comprehension. but it is so reassuring, so alleviating to know that he wants to take my burdens and anxieties and carry them for me, all because he cares....I have a bunch of friends that love me and care for me and get more than an earful of how i'm struggling, and God bless them they are amazing people and always there for me, but they're only human and can only take so much of that...it comes to a point where if all you do is tell your friends your problems and in a sense lay your burdens down with them, it could start to diminish the friendship that is there. But your relationship with Christ could never be diminished, because his love is completely unconditional. crazy huh? i know im still trying to wrap my head around it...but i believe in the truth of that verse and wanted to share it.

so that's how God brought me back today :o)